For the past few months I've been seeing someone who is fourteen years younger than me. It's been a long distance relationship so I'm sure some things that we would have noticed much earlier on in a more conventional (closer proximity) relationship is just now bubbling up.
Like when I walked into the living room from the kitchen the other night during a New Year's Eve party where I was wearing a 3 piece suit and saw that everyone was sitting indian-style on the floor playing a drinking game. My first reaction was something like, "You seriously expect me to sit on this floor in this suit and play a drinking game???" but soon that reaction was replaced by something a little more condescending along the lines of "THIS?? THIS is the best drinking game you kids know?? You have no idea how lame this one is in the pantheon of drinking games."
and yeah... I felt old.
Not only did I feel old, I felt as though I was in a time machine, revisiting a time in my life where I was also going through the experiences I saw and heard them talking about. The weirdest part for me was that I didn't realize that part of my life was so far removed. It was actually disconcerting to realize that the things they were saying and doing were things I had said and done, only at some point in my life I stopped saying and doing them and never missed or even noticed their absence.
The worst part.... I always feel right just cause I'm the older one... and I KNOW I'm not always right.
It will fuck with your head.
Something in this that will make you a better person you need to see what and grow into who you born to be.
Sounds great.
Posted by: aton | January 05, 2009 at 12:20 PM